Choked Up

The good news is that I have landed where I was before my trip weight-wise (206.8, half a pound over my 206.3 pre-trip "low").   So, still on track toward my 195 late April goal.

The bad news is that I woke up last night choking (rather violently) due to my sleep apnea and congestion.  I actually had a dream that someone grabbed my throat, dragged me across the bed, and started choking me.  I woke up gasping with a dry mouth and stuffed up nose.  (Attractive, I know.). Some of this is due to my ongoing problem with congestion, but I was told a year or more ago that if I lost weight - even though I'm not a classic sleep apnea patient - I stood a chance of reducing the blockage in my throat, even if only by a millimeter or two, and that could help significantly.

I hate the image of the fat guy choking on his own girth.  I hate the fat guy snoring image.  I hate being that person.  I don't hate myself for it, but I hate it about myself.  I can make changes that will move me away from that condition, and I am committed to doing so.  I'm on my way, stumbles and all.  Let's see where the journey continues to take me.

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